Finally got a place in March. And almost finally moved all the way in. Only one more load of big things and I can give the key back to them at the storage center!! I have to wait for my friend to come back from vacation and then it will be done and I will be offically moved! Yes I know only took 5 months to do it!!!

I have traced my family back so far I have it back to ADAM and EVE....do you realize that is about and a little over 7000 years ago!!! Also that my husband and I are related twice once on our fathers side 34 generations back AND on our mothers side 12 generations back! Been doing this now for about 13 years and have found some amazing things out about my ancestors!!! AND I'm still looking!!!

Can't sleep. I have an upset stomach and a headache.

Missing F really bad tonight. And hating people more and more for calling the police on me the other day.

If I dont answer my phone or if I dont answer my door there is a reason. Dont call the cops to open the door. I usually dont want to talk to you!!!

Happy Birthday Honey I love you! Hope you have a good day and the memories are good ones!

Maybe it is getting better for me. My boss is so cool she yelled at me today in a good way. She told me I could change my hours to anything I need as long as I get my 40 hours a week to let me go visiting as often as I need! If its every week or every two weeks its okay. She got mad well I dont want to say mad but she asked why didnt I come to her a while ago so she could work with me. I told her it wasnt a big deal. She said yes it is and said I could work my hours any way as long as I get 40 in the week!!!! Yeaaaaa woooohoooo! I cant wait to tell. But the old woman wont be happy that I work with. Oh well.

Since I have gotten older I havent traveled much. In 98 I went on a 3 week trip which ended quick because the person I was with was starting to get on my nerves. In 2001 I flew to Texas to visit my cousin. I had a great time! I think Ive only been to day roadtrips out of thr state since then. Nothing overnight let alone a week. I mentioned to F that Id like to go to Idaho and visit my girlfriend. She moved from there to here because of someone she met on the internet that didnt work out. She likes it here better but had to move back out the because of reasons I will not discuss here. Anyhow Id like to go visit her next year. Maybe in the fall? Do leaves change out there? I know they do but do they have the color there like they do here? Maybe thats something to explore! Id really like to go sounds like a plan to me!

Work went better than I thought it would these past two weeks. Not much overtime but still a little to help out. Ive taken a 4 day weekend. Ive taken Monday and Tuesday off. To rest up for being at work by myself for two weeks. Anyways I went and got H lastnight made his favorite chicken wraps and then he wanted to go to Walmart. He didnt see anything he wanted to buy so we headed home with money burning his pocket. We past a bowling alley and he said lets go bowling. I love to bowl but havent done it in years and Im sure Id look stupid out there They had a special last night sign up after ten and you can have as many people and as many games til 1am I still didnt bowl but H did. He didnt do to bad he played 6 games and got scores from about 50 to 120 oh it was also extrem bowling where you bowl in the dark with strobe lights and disco light! Maybe next time Ill do it hahahaha

For doing a three person job these past two weeks I will have to say its going quite well. Only have had about a dozen missed calls that left a message on our voice mail that I've had to call back. Hung up on one women for calling me a bitch the whole time I was trying to talk to her boyfriend. Not as much over time as I thought I would have had or would like but I didn't want to push my luck. I'm only out one week which isn't too bad I guess seeing I'm usually two weeks or more out. I did take Monday and Tuesday off since I've been alone the past two weeks. I guess going to get the other women warmed up for when I take a week off! Cant wait til Friday!

Ok LJ is my home and also will be my home. BUT....I have now a Facebook. F has got a my space but I like Facebook more. FB reminds me of LJ but still different. I have found alot of kids that I went to school with on it. To me it doesnt have all the drama live MS has. Im not going to stop posting here but if you want to find me on Facebook Ill be there too. I already have pics of F and H on it.

Dont know if I have ever said but there are normally two of us who does my job. There was three but they got rid of one of the positions before I got hired. Any ways there are two of us. The company keep tract of our numbers. Mine is double to the other woman who has been doing this job for 40 years this year. She needs to retire. Well shes on vacation this week and next by company rules she not allowed to take two weeks together like that but she told the boss that she had the time and she was taking it. So she left. Well a three person job has gone down from three to just me. I did pretty well all week with just under 2 hours overtime. I wouldnt have had that if she would have done her own work on her last day I was going to 'help her' and she gave it to me and left. But of well my numbers are good and I can do it by myself with a part-timer.

Not really a toothache but a mouth headache. I had two teeth pulled on Friday one had a post in it from where I had a cap that had broke off. Well anyways he pulled that one and the one behide it. The one with the post hurt me while he pulled it. Today I developed a fever and the pain was still there in my gum where he pulled the front on. I called the dentist and he asked me to come in that I could have a dry socket. I went and he fixed me right up. By the time I got home and napped my mouth and gums feel like they can do dances again. I still have to go back and have remove the packing but boy do I feel better!!!!!

Why is it when your man is away other men think they can hit on you? Just remember just because my mouse is away my kitty isn't playing! She will bite you if you get too close to her! So leave her alone!

No I didnt go this past weekend. For several reason. 1 No gas and 2 The weather was being Ohio weather. It didnt know what to do either rain or be breezy. Hell tonight we are even suppose to have frost. Come on now people its May for sake get the warm dry weather here and stop with this cold rainy stuff. I can sleep tonight. I should be sleeping already for work tomarrow but I cant sleep. I keep thinking about my dad and F. I miss them. At least F will come home sometime and hug me I just wished I could get that from my dad.

Yeah KETCHUP!!! When I get in a fight with you all you have to do is let go of the ketchup bottle and I will let go of you! Simple as that....so next time B just let go and I will let go of you.

I weighed myself at work today. Although I didnt gain as much as I had thought I still gained some. I need to walk. My goal.....to lose 50-75 pounds for when F comes home. Which really is not too much. My weight now is 358....okay maybe I dont weigh that much but do you really think I'm going to post it here for anyone to see....lol...well I'm not but that gives you some sort of idea. Okay and the plan to walk part of that trail this weekend is blown. It's suppose to rain so don't think I'll be doing that unless it clears up for a few hours. So we will see on that part. But I'm ready!!!!

I have gained so much wieght since F has gone it's not funny. Well not all that much because my feet aren't hurting or my knees after I get up from sleeping at night. But it's getting there. I have gained about 25-35 pounds since F left. He always made me do stuff when I came home from work except sit on my duff. SOOOOO this is my plan........the Tow Path Trail starts in Barberton and ends down here.....SOOOO I'm going to go to Barberton this weekend and start there and maybe by then end of this summer I will walk the whole trail that is connected. I won't have walked the whole whole trail since it starts in Cleveland but it does continue from Barberton down to here. So I'm going to give it a chance. LOL will I make it who knows. I've been walking at work around the hospital with one of the other girls so that will help me lose weight as well. So when I get to work there is a scales in the bathroom I'll weight myself and give you a progress report. My goal is to loose 50-75 pounds this summer.

Someone asked me about family today. I told them the only family I had was H. That I had no family. They asked qbout F and I said he was my husband and that didnt count. They said something about my mother and I told them that she died when I was little because she was depressed that she had a girl instead of a son and shot herself. They said well I thought that my mother lived up north and I said no that that was my step mother who treated me differently because my father had died two years after my real mother and my step mother didnt want me either. I wished I had a family who cared about me and wouldnt treat me different but I was always the who never got anything because they cared about my step brother more because he was blood and I was a problem to her. I guess Im feeling this way is because F cant come home yet and H just went home to his parents and once again I have no one. I was thinking at work the other day....if I would die would people really care?

Well the first thing is that Im mad at F he wants my help and Im willing to help but after what he said nope not going to was depressed all day yesterday about it. Oh well when I got off of work I went and got H a phone like mine that hes been wanting. Made me feel good again. Havent given it to him and was trying to send a picture message of a bar and shield so he can us it as his wall paper but it wont load. I called tech support and it should be fixed in about three days. There goes his surprise. Oh well he will still be happy. It depresses me to know no one got him a damn thing for his birthday and thats way I wasnt allowed around him for about a year. Well gotta get sleep now night!!!